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What I Was and More

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1.
Summer’s fold, gentle in the fray The world is gold in the dying light of day Wait, dear; the wind is restless in the streets I hear it blowing through my reverie And I’m standing here, half awake As the dream begins to break Tell myself it’s just the way Just the way it used to be I can feel this fade away… I can feel this fade away… Windows glow in the evening’s slow decay Casting shadows soft upon your face Stay here; the night is colder beyond the eaves I fear I’m losing you to the dying leaves And I’m standing here, wide awake As the dream begins to break I tell myself it’s not the way Not the way it used to be I can feel this fade away Fade away Hold me down Turn away as I see you go, and I Feel it drown Feel the weight of the words we’ve sown Turn around See the years between us now, and I I can see this fade away (And I thought this would never change) I can see this fade away (And I’m lost, lost in the disarray) Hold me while I fade away
2.
Hylas 04:12
Take my hand, When you take your stand I will hold... I’ll hold you down. Hold you close When I need you most I will hold… I’ll watch you go down. I could tell you not to need me, Tell you to believe me... All the way down I would never try to change you, Only try to save you... All the way down Won’t you see What you mean to me I will hold... I’ll follow you down I can’t touch What might mean too much Fingers numb with cold, I’ll watch you drown. I would ask you not to leave me Ask you just to see me… All the way down I would tell you that I’m sorry Tell you not to worry… All the way down Hylas, staring at the deep end Wondering what’s beneath him As his weight sinks to the bottom I would hold you in your sleeping Wash away your weeping As your lips turn blue with drowning Ahhh… Try my best, put you to the test I can’t lay to rest all of these empty feelings Bite my tongue when the feeling’s gone Saving what went wrong, drowning out what I’m feeling… Hylas, staring at the deep end Wondering what’s beneath him As his weight sinks to the bottom I would hold you in your sleeping Wash away your weeping As your lips turn blue with downing
3.
Close your eyes and lay your head down Stars will rest upon your crown Close your eyes and go to sleep I will hold you in your dreams As the world spins through the night Constellations ride by your side In the darkness I will keep Daylights cares from troubling your sleep Oooh, how soon they go Oooh... Oooh, how soon they go Oooh… Deep as the ocean, high as the sky My love for you never dies I’ll stay sleepless by your side Close your eyes, I’ll guard your dreaming Oooh, how soon they go Oooh... Oooh, how soon they go Oooh… In the morning you will wake Brush the touch of dreams from your face I’ll step back and watch you grow Hold this space that you’ll never know Oooh, how soon they go Oooh... Oooh, how soon they go Oooh…
4.
Persephone 04:02
Dark skies, heavenly I’ve been gone, caught in between I’ve been walking the edge of the end of the line I’ve been opening doors I didn’t know were mine I’ve been lost, Lost in the sound of my heartbeat I’ve been told To leave, leave this all behind I’ve been seeing ghosts Ghosts in my head I’ve been waiting for you To blow this open Life line, steady me Heart line, come ready me I’ve been traveling farther than shadows can hide And unravelling walls, fall before my eyes I’ve been lost, Lost in the sound of my heartbeat I’ve been told To leave, leave this all behind I’ve been seeing ghosts Ghosts in my head I’ve been waiting for you To blow this open I’ve been lost, lost I’ve been waiting for you To blow this open To blow this open And I’ve been waiting for you I’ve been waiting for you I’ve been waiting, waiting for you I’ve been waiting, waiting for you I’ve been waiting, waiting for you I’ve been waiting, waiting for you I’ve been waiting, waiting for you I’ve been waiting, waiting for you...
5.
The Roses 04:20
Spoken: Say what you will, and scratch my heart to find The roots of last year's roses in my breast; I am as surely riper in my mind As if the fruit stood in the stalls confessed. Laugh at the unshed leaf, say what you will, Call me in all things what I was before, A flutterer in the wind, a woman still; I tell you I am what I was and more. Lyrics: And I will go alone, far away But know, I’ll be back again The road lies ahead, blackened by the rain Under rose-colored skies, my naked heart will wane I will turn and Take you by the hand Tread my footsteps far across this fertile land And I’ll go, go, go Until I meet the sky And I’ll go, I’ll go Until the river’s dry River’s dry... And I will follow the sunlight filtering down Exposing the layers below Taste the warmth of years ago And the ripened sweetness shows I’ll turn to the dark caress of night I’ll beckon to the branches as they sigh I’ll go, I’ll go Until I greet the sky And I’ll go, I’ll go Until the river’s dry River’s dry... Spoken: My branches weigh me down, frost cleans the air, My sky is black with small birds bearing south; Say what you will, confuse me with fine care, Put by my word as but an April truth,– Autumn is no less on me that a rose Hugs the brown bough and sighs before it goes.
6.
The River 04:51
And I saw you walking towards the river now With a stone in your hand And you walked out deep into the river now And I don’t understand And you held a stone up to the sky, and you let it go And it disappeared right before your eyes, and you let it go Hold me softly Hold me softly Then you dove underneath the water now And you disappeared And I stood waiting for the river now, waiting for you my dear And I held the stone up to the sky, and I let it go And it disappeared right before my eyes, and I let it go And you let it go And you let it go And you let it go Hold me softly, hold me softly Hold me softly, hold me softly Hold me softly, hold me softly
7.
Sea Creature 02:57
You walk through this world with a weightlessness That people recognize, and say that you’re blessed But all you really are is just a creature in the sea In this color-coded world, they’re just as blind as you can see They watch you speak, they watch you move They shake their heads and they wish you’d lose If only they’d stop and open up their eyes And see this world of grey is nothing but lies, lies And you can see in my eyes why I haven’t tried To make you something new, something you needn’t be It’s not my role to change your pain, think again And this you see and thank me sincerely, this I know… And maybe one day, many years from now In a world without TV, and women in power You’ll get the respect and admiration you deserve Standing up tall, but they haven’t the nerve, nerve, nerve… And you can see in my eyes why I haven’t tried To make you something new, something you needn’t be It’s not my role to change your pain, think again And this you see and thank me sincerely, this I know…
8.
Mercy 04:46
Lace these old familiar patterns ‘Round these old familiar walls We haven’t yet decided, Should we leap, or should we fall? But indecision’s empty And our minds, they feel so full So we’ll keep on building habits ‘Til we follow the dust and settle down It’s strange how we can wander Far from all we’ve known before But every path still guides us To the same unopened doors We circle ‘round our questions ‘Cause we fear the answer’s call To find ourselves still wanting ‘Cause we haven’t changed at all And oh, why do you frown, love? Oooh, why do you frown? And apathy’s a kind of mercy — I will not have to see you go I’ll hide myself from hunger And I will not hear the wolves I’ll hold my head down under ‘Til I cannot feel the cold And if I miss the springtime, Well, I’ve seen the sun before It’s worth it if it keeps the rain From knocking at my door And oh, why do you frown, my love? We’re living just to run our time down, down my love. Oh, why do you frown, my love? And apathy’s a kind of mercy — I will not have to see you go I’ll hide myself from hunger And I will not hear the wolves I’ll hold my head down under ‘Til I cannot feel the cold And if I miss the springtime, Well, I’ve seen the sun before It’s worth it if it keeps the rain From knocking at my door And oh, why do you frown, my love? We’re living just to run our time down, down my love. Oh, why do you frown? Oh, why do you frown... Oooh… Oooh....
9.
Watching you, watching me Through the windowpane In the pouring rain I can see what you see It’s not beautiful It’s not beautiful Lay your head down now And go to sleep Remember me Lay your head down now And go to sleep It’s not what it seems In the dark, you dream That you’re lying in a field And you know that it is real And you’re staring at the sky It’s so beautiful It’s so beautiful Lay your head down dear The sky is blue Watching over you Lay your head down dear The sky is blue Watching over you Lay your head down now The morning breaks You’ll be okay Lay your head down now The morning breaks And I will wait for you
10.
Winds blow Headlights chasing an empty road Oh, your eyes still Shuttered against the glow Stars low The night sky pulls like an undertow And oh, the outlines Hide what I wish you’d (show) In my head I want you to see me fall Tell me what you want from In my head I want you to break your walls Tell me what you want from me Dark rows, These straight lines twisting beneath our load And oh, my voice Is lost in the miles In my head I want you to let this show Tell me what you want from In my head I don’t want to see you go Tell me what you want from In my head I want you to let me know Tell me what you want from me Hey, I know you’re waiting Searching for a sign A way to know; I can see we’re breaking Breaking underneath But I won’t go... In my head I want you to let me know Tell me what you want from In my head I don’t want to see you go Tell me what you want from me In my head I want you to break your walls Tell me what you want from In my head I want you to see me fall Tell me what you want from Tell me what you want from Tell me what you need from me...
11.
I could make a promise In my head In my head We could build a fortress In my bed In my bed And it’s too sweet not to tell you What I’ve left unsaid And it’s too sweet not to tell you Not to tell you… But I’ll hold my head up Hold my breath Hold my head as you second guess I’ll hold my head up Hold my breath Hold my head as I second guess you Ooooh... (Tell me what you mean to me) Ooooh... Searching for a sound in What you said What you said Built a home in silence Instead Instead And I’m choosing what to tell you What to lay to rest And I’m choosing what to tell you What to tell you… And I’ll hold my head up Hold my breath Hold my head as you second guess I’ll hold my head up Hold my breath Hold my head as I second guess you Ooooh... (Tell you what you mean to me) Ooooh... Hold my head Hold my breath Hold my head as you second guess... And I'll hold my head up Hold my breath Hold my head as you second guess… (I can feel you holding back) (I can’t seem to turn this back) And I held my head up Held my breath Held my head as we second guessed; I held my head up Held my breath Held my head as I second guessed you.
12.
Take the time away Hold my breath, I’m going down Take the time away, away... Take the light away Drown it in the midnight hour Take the light away, away... Hold your head in my hands Look at me, understand That the cold is not here Isn’t close to everything that we love Take my heart away, Drench the ground with emptiness Take my heart away, away Take my breath away, Watch the drop that touches down Take my breath away, away… Hold your head in my hands Look at me, understand That the cold is not here Isn’t close to everything that we love That we love...

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"Come for the beautiful harmonies and instrumentation. Stay for the intent to grow, learn, and look inside oneself." - Kira Grunenberg, American Songwriter

Produced by Martin Feveyear (Brandi Carlile, Kings of Leon, Damien Jurado), What I Was and More integrates tight harmonies and acoustic instrumentation with folk pop and indie rock influences to create an emotionally dynamic sound that’s rich in color and texture. We wrote the album while we were going through significant changes in our personal lives, finished tracking the night before the world shut down for COVID-19, and mixed it remotely in a world still in a state of great uncertainty. The songs center around a theme of creative destruction and transformation, and if ever there was a time to turn those things into strengths, it's now. Our new songs play with perspective, flipping expected narratives inside out and tackling the nuances of compassion, the razing and rebuilding of love and trust, and the fight for change over apathy and inertia from opposing angles. At its core, What I Was and More invites listeners to succumb to the delectable edge of possibility.

Publicity: info@marchtomay.com
Radio: ds@distillerpromo.com (Dave Sanford // Distiller Promo)
Label: Northbound Records
All other inquiries: info@marchtomay.com

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released September 1, 2020

Elizabeth Wesche (vocals, harp)
Darren Guyaz (vocals, piano, guitar)
David Bush (drums, percussion)
Paul Murphy (bass)
Rae Minji Lee (violin)
Lauren McShane (cello)

Photography: Tiffany Tomkinson (Center Point Photography)
Layout and design: Lisa Pence (Pence Design)
Engineered by Don Farwell (Earwig Studios)
Mixed and mastered by Martin Feveyear (Feveyear Master/Mix)
Produced by Elizabeth Wesche, Darren Guyaz, and Martin Feveyear,
with input from the band and Don Farwell
Music and lyrics written by Darren David Guyaz & Elizabeth Claire Wesche*
℗ © 2020 March to May, LLC

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When is the right time to take a chance? Who are the right people? What are the right conditions? It took several chance encounters before March to May's spark hit. But when it did, it didn't take long for them to catch fire. After playing over 50 shows in less than two years, they released their debut album, The Water's Edge, in April 2015. ... more

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